Life has been turned upside down for you and I know so many things have changed since your little sister, Joleen, was born. The first time you were away from mommy and daddy for any time was for two days with your friend. When you came home there was a little baby that took all of mommy's attention. "What happened to my mommy time?" I know that has been a reoccurring thought for you. I am so sorry that we don't get to cuddle as often or play like we used to. I want you to know that I DO love you, I love you with all of my heart. You are my first born and my sweet, beautiful, little princess.
Even though you are two-years-old, you have been such an awesome big sister. I love how you want to help me every time I need to change Joleen's diaper. You are right by my side with a diaper and asking to put the baby powder on. I love how when she is crying you are right there with her binky and a big kiss. I love it when I am feeding her you are right there beside me watching saying "baby hungry?" You have such a sweet heart towards her already, I know you two will be loving sisters.
You have been a little butthead to daddy though and I pray that we get this figured out. I hope it's not because I haven't been able to play you or cuddle with you like we used to. It breaks my heart when you ask to "cuddle mommy" and I am busy with your sister and have to say "wait". Today you were fighting taking a nap and kept getting out of your bed to talk to me and I kept sending you back but finally you won me over with your request to "cuddle mommy". The moment we sat on the couch to cuddle, just you and me, you fell asleep in my arms. Looking at your sweet face made me realize that I don't spend enough one on one time with you. I will make a promise to you now, that when I am not holding the baby to take care of her, I will take care of you by playing whether it be playdough, coloring, or just twirling around in circles. You are my sweet little angel and I want you to know that I do cherish you. I love you so very much.
Love,
Mommy
Thoughts and feelings about being mommy to my beautiful little girls.
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