Week 20 - She Really Is A Girl!

Josh and I went to the doctor yesterday for our 20 week ultrasound and check up and found out that Rachel is really a girl! So we are for sure going to have a daughter one day in August. When the doctor was looking at her she said that she was growing right on target and that from what she could tell we have a very healthy baby. (It looks like Josh and I grow healthy, happy babies.) It was nice to see her again, even though the bigger she gets the harder you can make out where she is. She was folded in half when we were looking at her, her feet were up in front of her head. Babies are so flexible. It was great to find out that everything is going well.

Even though I am technically halfway through my pregnancy now, I am still plagued by morning sickness. I really am hating this. I keep wondering how I will be able to handle this when I'm pregnant again and have a little one to take care of. Oh well, I'll deal with that later. But still, I thought that the sickness thing was suppose to go away by now. Josh loves to play with me and tickle me at night and I can only handle like a minute of it before I feel like I am going to hurl all over him. I love it when he tickles me but not lately. It's not like I throw up everyday or anything but I do have a tendency to feel nauseas throw out the day. Ugh...oh well, I take it in stride, I know that this is something I have to deal with and just be grateful that I am going to have the baby that I always wanted.

Lately I have been writing to one of my lovely adult friends who is also having a baby girl (her 5th child). I used to babysit her kids before I moved to Arkansas and just fell in love with her and her family. Anyways, I've been venting to her that I am a little intimidated and scared about the idea that Josh and I are going to be sole providers for our little baby girl. I know that once she's here that I will know what to do to care for her, it's not really that that intimidates me. It knowing what all we need to have ready for her when she gets here. I'm looking forward to the day that we can go shopping and set up her nursery but I don't know for some reason I feel like it's a daunting task. I have quite of few friends up here who have children of their own and I know I can ask them my questions. I'm probably making this whole thing harder than it really is.