To Crochet or Not To Crochet?

I have come to the realization that I crochet too much. Can this really be a bad thing? I think it can. Not only can it create tendinitis in my shoulder, which I've gotten twice, but it takes away from quality time with my girls and my focus off my wifely duties; ie. cleaning the house.

Early this month I made a decision to take a break from crochet orders and to refocus myself. I did really good for about a week and now I find myself slipping again. Why do I think that crocheting is more important? Is it a selfish desire? I know I'm not a fan of cleaning, who really enjoys scrubbing dirty pots and folding clothes? But when I crochet all the time I am also taking away time to play with my girls and help them learn and grow.

I know a big problem I have in not keeping up with everything is lack of schedule. I know I am better when there is a strict schedule to follow. I have tried to create a schedule to follow but for some reason I don't, maybe it's because to me I don't see the immediate consequence of not following it. How do other stay-at-home mommies do it? Keep a house clean perfectly, have time to play and craft with the kids, and have personal time.

I know I have struggled with my selfish, personal desires all my life. I guess I just get so worn out from the constant whining and tiredness that comes from being a mommy of a four year old and an almost two year old that I just give up and give in to what I want instead of just pushing through.

Dear God,
I thank you so much for blessing me with the chance to be a mom. Of giving me the charge of helping these two beautiful little girls grow and learn and become lovely little ladies. I just ask that you help me change my priorities. Help me to always put them first and my husband first before myself. I know there are times when I should have "me time" but help me learn that it doesn't always need to be "me time". Help me to motivate myself for change and to accept it. Thank you for always being here for me even when I don't turn to You all the time. I know You are always here even if I walk away. Thank you for loving me.
These things I pray,
Amen