Guess Who’s Going To Be A Big Sister!

Yes, you read that right, we are going to have another baby! Josh and I found out a little while ago and I’m not sure how I feel about it. I am excited but I am a little scared as well. I am questioning God’s timing. I know that He is in control and that His timing is perfect but I still wonder. Josh’s job isn’t the steadiest; we are barely make ends meet right now. The vehicle that I drive to Play Group and Story Time and everywhere else in between died the other week so I am reliant on others to get places. It makes me wonder how we are going to handle doctor’s appointments. Hopefully we’ll get it fixed or something figured out soon. I’m also a little worried about my health. I am wondering if maybe I have an infection, I really don’t want anything to happen that could hurt the baby. I did go to the doctor yesterday but I won't know the results of my pap for a couple weeks. Concerning doctor’s appointments, I know that we will not be able to pay for this pregnancy by ourselves since we don’t have health insurance so I am applying for Medicaid. I pray that we get covered because I don’t know how we will be able to afford it otherwise. That also means I need to find another doctor. The one I see has already taken as many Medicaid patients as she does this year or whatever. So this week I need to call the Medicaid office and find out what all I need to do to find a doctor and when I can start going to my appointments. Right now I am 6 weeks pregnant I won't be too worried if I can see the doctor before 12 weeks. Hopefully I'll get it all figured out. Like I said I know God is in control.

Having said all that, I am still very excited about having another baby. Josh and I have wanted another child for a while now. We are both hoping for a little boy this time. If that were to happen then Josh would have his Rachel and I would get my Noah and I think our family would be pretty much complete. Yes, having another little girl would be financially easier on us since we already have everything but I really am praying that we get a boy. Also if we have a boy then this will most likely be my last pregnancy. I think having one of each would be lovely and make our little family complete.

I am so excited to have another life growing inside of me. I think it is the best thing that God allowed us women to experience. I can't wait until I can fit into my maternity clothes and feel the baby move and kick inside me. I have really missed that feeling. Since I am only 6 weeks pregnant I haven't really felt like I was pregnant until now. This week everything makes me want to gag, my boobs are pretty sore, and I have to go to the bathroom all the time it seems like. Besides feeling a little queasy I really do love being pregnant.

Well, that's all I have to say this week. I will be keeping a weekly pregnancy blog again like I did with my little Roo for this little one. I hope you have fun reading and I will still keep updating you on Rachel every month as well. I just had to tell everyone!